NIGHT, AGAIN

­Susan Smith Nash

 

You’re here and I’ll ask you –

trees shivering, bark peeling itself in sheets

the wind tearing at my roots

while my hair

sows madness in my eyes –

I need you like I need the rain

and the plow – to cut my skin

so I bleed in furrows, weeping

mud and sap surging up

in spite of me, of you, of life

and other indefinable hungers –

will you let me?

will you?

tear my skin, my face, my heart –

whatever I’m calling scars

these days

masks, presumptuous identities

foisted upon me, upon you –

will you let me?

will you?

 

 -- October 27, 2001